To remain true and faithful to Him til the very end.
To have an unwavering committment.
To keep on keeping on.
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To realize He appreciates me,
and loves me.
To hear Him say 'Well done'
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Oh God, show me what does it take today,
to be that one You're looking out for.
That one woman who is wholly after Your own heart.
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I feel the urgency.

A true heart, I desire.

One that wholly seeks after You.

One that remembers a hunger after You.

The heart that is there when all else strip away.

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Take me away, mould me, change me.

My life willing to be broken for others

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I'm dying on the inside to myself

Sorrows building up

You reached out to me,

You have given me yet another chance.

'I never wanna be like that again'

as tears flowed down my eyes.

TODAY...
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1) I went for 2 prayer meetings :)
It wasn't physically all comfortable, but it was definitely spiritually all worth it!
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2) I painted my nails red.
Finally did my long-awaited manicure. In my favourite color. I'm a very happy girl!
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3) I am eating Kimchi fried rice & deepfried chicken wings, at 1:22 am.
Justified okay.
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4) Went to the money changer..
For the third time in 2 weeks. OMG GWEN.
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5) Felt a burden in my heart while praying.
It is sad, how many a times we can treat what God meant to be important and valuable in our lives as common. Simple things like praying, rising up, seeking God, spiritual hunger... The basics.
God teach us to esteem what You esteem.
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6) I think it was rather obvious Emy & I did manicure. How we refused to pick up coins that dropped, hold the drink we ordered, take out money from bag. o.o
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7) I did probably 2/8 of my chinese compo today
And I feel quite accomplished :X
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8) Online shopped for more than 3 hours!!!
I don't usually like online shopping. The online shop I went was too impressive to me that I knew I had to buy something from there. But the procedure was too confusing, til I took hours to know what I was doing. But still, I realized I got the concept wrong.
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Ungifted in this area :( BUT THE CLOTHES NICE LEH.
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9) Only slept for about 4 hours
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10) Drank Double Vanilla Tea Latte at Coffeebean after morning PM.
Once again, I'm a happy woman.
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HEH :D

Above all else
Above all else
We exalt You
We exalt You
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Here I stand thirsting for You
Here I am surrender to You
Let my life be Your clay
Mould me in Your ways
Here I stand desperate for You
Here I am a vessel for You
Let my life sing Your praise
Bring honour to Your name
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Leaders meeting with Rev Art S was simply awesome. Morning PMs have been breathtaking. This is the kind of life I love living, but I want more.
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A dream can make faith arise,
Faith can make a dream come to pass.
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Launching my nets into the deep waters.

Wow, what an eggciting week it has been!
June holidays have been SFSG; so far so good ;D
Haha.
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Today was churchwide BS on Song Of Solomon.
It was once again, amazing and powerful.
The love of God just fell upon me and overwhelmed me :)
The word really blew me away.
I love this series of BS so much..
It's so refreshing, so new, so revelational, so.. wow.
Most of all, it encourages me to walk more intimately with God!
:}
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If we don't quit, we're gonna make it.
With every winter comes spring.
Deer of the morning, hear my cry.
Bring me to the Mountains of Bether.
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All for You Lord, all for You.
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Tomorrow's gonna be touch rug training in the morning, lunch with a few friends in the afternoon, & then family time!

O draw me away
Messiah today
To Your presence to stay
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After the first churchwide bible study on the Song of Solomon, I feel once again drawn back to my first love for God. I feel so in love with Him yet again. It was beautiful. I was overwhelmed man! I want to come back to a place, where everything else pales in comparison to Him; everything else is insignificant.
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I'm looking forward to the rest of the churchwide bible study lessons manxz! It's gonna be a superb month of June ;D
One of greater depth.
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Do not stir up nor awaken love
Until it pleases.

Help me Agape You, Jesus.

Dear God,
though I'm dying from all the studying..
& it's so hard to keep going on.
Please help me to not give up,
and keep doing what I have to.
Amen.

& they make me ask myself,
what did I do?
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It turned out a frustrating last week of school..
Many problems arising and streaming in, my gosh.
I woke up, praying God will help me sort things out.
May He restore all things in my life..
May I walk out of these a better person.
May the rest of the week turn for the better.
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To be strong,
to know what I want.
What He wants for me.

Goshes.
I'm overwhelmed, by the number of things I have to do and want to do.
I'm overwhelmed by the things I cannot do.
I think I can't sleep tonight.
I've so much work to do! So much to study!
What a torturous last week of school, seriously. :(
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Ah well..
Anyway, yesterday was a long and stretched day.
I had touch rug tournament from 8 to 4plus.
Thereafter, rushed home to bathe and headed for talentime at NTU.
I reached home only at 12 plus!
KO-ed once I reached home. Haha.
CONGRATS TO CREW 3047 FOR BEING OVERALL CHAMPION FOR TALENTIME <3
AND CHAMPION FOR THE DANCE CATEGORY.
I'M YOUR LOYAL FAN! :D
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Today we had Pst Mike Connell with us in church!
He's one of my favourite ministers.
His yearly visitations to our church always mark a new milestone in my walk with God.
God moved mightily in our service today, and in my life!
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More than ever, I desire to live my life out for You.
You are always first.
Oh God, I want to commit myself to You.

Oh my gosh, I feel real hot now. Very stuffyyyy. Annoying.
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It's been tests, tests, tests for me.
Today was Econs and Lit tests, which apparently were not very good at all.
Pretty disappointed with Econs in fact. I couldn't finish my paper in the given time ;(
It was like all the info and answers were in my brain, but I just didn't have the time to pen them down. Sad.
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Tomorrow I'm gonna have math test, and I ain't done with my preparation.
I feel too irritated by the stuffiness and hotness to even study properly, roar :S
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After tomorrow, though, I'm done with my tests for this week. Phew.
Four more to come next week... :/
AND THEN IT WILL BE HOLIDAYS!
:D :D :D
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Prayer. Praise. Worship.
In unity & togetherness.
Day & night.
This life, I will seek to live.

I wish I can be a wiser person.
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I don't want to always commit mistakes, then realize, regret and learn.
I want a kind of godly wisdom, that can stop me from making stupid mistakes as far as possible.
Especially when it is really within my control.
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Ain't no first time...
No, it isn't the first time that I regret the decisions I have made.
No, it isn't the first time I discovered my fault, when I just... thought longer. Or thought, more carefully.
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I wish I can be a wiser person,
who will listen more clearly and obediently to the promptings inside my heart.
Who will give a thought to those promptings.
And not, just pay attention to the situations I am in and nothing else.
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If I had a choice again,
I'd rather bear the bad, than ignore that prompting.
Than, to be a disobedient person.
A sillier person.
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How silly can one get-
To ignore despite warned,
by a voice deep within.
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I never want to do it again.
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Once again,
I wish I can be a wiser person.
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Thank God He is a God of second chances..
One of new beginnings.
One whose mercies rise with the new morn,
and whose grace is sufficient for me.
Thank God!!