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I feel like I'm on the threshing floor right now,
And I most probably am.
It's no longer about what circumstances bring,
it's about deep down within.
Those that He wants to deal with.
Those that He wants me to do without.
I know it'll ultimately work out for good.
But it's. Well. Messy.
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GWEN TAN IS FALLING SICKKKK. ARGH.
Byebye sec 1, 2, 3. Hello sec 4. You've been showing me that you really can kick ass! It's about everything put together.

Lets just say,
I'm in one of my weirdest form today.
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I, just don't know why.
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I can't stand some things.
No, it's just me and today.

TGIW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANK GOD IT'S WEDNESDAYZZZZ!

Haha Wednesday's the earliest day of my week! My school ends at 130. And by the time I'm home today, it's only.. 3pm! :) Only an insane person like Leng Ting Huan would stay back in school on Wednesday! It's WEDNESDAY leh. WEDNESDAY!!! Haha. I was like that in the past too, not liking to go home too early. But I guess I've a different mentality now. Home = completed homework, time with God, rest, plannings, blah.
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TOMORROW is da day. We'll be getting back our chinese Os results. At least an A2 preaseeeee. I'm enrolling into Jiang tuition centre latest by next week. Will have tuition lessons on Friday nights most probably. Hoho. God, save my higher chinese. YOU KNOW, as much as I want to do well in my chinese. CHINESE LESSONS REALLY BORE ME. (I'm sorry Huiyun.) I guess I'm not the chinese sort, yet. And this year's lesson's all about flowers and sceneries. I wouldn't mind texts about people that much!
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Eleanor is eating breakfast at seven pm singapore time. So funny! :p
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AH I'M LATE FOR SCHOOL TODAY, AGAIN. APPARENTLY. :( Gwen's really truly decided to change from today onwards. I've decided, I shall be dedicated to this process of change, and I will be disciplined to get out of bed by six am for school. I don't care. And I'll get up at 425 am everyday. For kew teeeee. If you see me late for school again, you can..... No it won't happen! Hee!

I was staring and staring,

staring at the old couple and the baby in front of them.

Staring at them as they gazed at that baby with affection.

Staring as they called out for the baby's attention with adoration.

They were looking at the baby with what seemed like unfailing and never-ending love.

Right then and there,

I knew God loves me.

Somewhat like that,

No. Even more...

I was touched.

I vaguely remember tears beginning to well in my eyes.

Well, anyway, I was touched.

Thank You..

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FRIDAY WAS OC! It was tiring! I went for day one only and I was dead beat. Reached home at around ten plus, bathed and slept. I was so tired my eyes got a little swollen :/ Haha.

1/3's class flag!! I super love it. I think it's very nice.

Do you know, I love spongebob. I find it disgustingly cute.

Haha it's so disgusting that it's cute to me. Really! The awesome artist of the awesome flag!

When he realized I took his picture, he stared at me and ask:

"Why you take my picture! :( "

My game station- Fall of trust.
I don't feel like elaborating.
Heard the description of this game and said it too many times.
One's supposed to fall, the other six to ten catch.

I've had a great weekend. And. It's back to school again tomorrow! May this week be an awesome week for both you and me! :)

..& I love You too.

OH YES. Something that amused my sister, brother, grandma and I :
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Grandma: Ger, now you so handsome-looking already.
My brother (Gerald): Huh you mean last time not handsome meh?
Grandma: Ya.
All of us: *LAUGHS*
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During dinner, my grandparents and my parents were discussing about casinoes, and jackpots. And I realized from the entire conversation:
PEOPLE GET ADDICTED TO PRESSING THE BUTTON ON THE JACKPOT MACHINE. THEY GET ADDICTED TO THE THRILL. THEY GET ADDICTED TO BELIEVING THEY'D BE LUCKY THE NEXT ROUND. ( I have no idea why I caps-ed this!)
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Huh at that point, I thought this addiction was funny. But it doesn't seem so already. Bah :/ haha.
I'm gonna sit the Singapore flyer some dayyyyy.

One last chance, I hope is all I need.
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Well. Haha probably entering soon into a time of tests. Test of faith, of commitment. Of strength. Of love. I love You. Even if it means, everything. I hope I'll stil love You.
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Anyway. DEEPEST APOLOGIES FOR DRESSING UP SLOPPILY FOR CHOIR TODAY. As usual, I blurly wore shorts for a formal performance. And sneakers. :O Haha. And I was late. :( I admit this is a very bad habit of mine. Give me time, I will change. I am not saying this for fun. This time when I say change, I mean change.
I do want to go for the Suzhou competition. Ít'll be enriching for the choir and I. :D
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Today was CCA Extravaganza, Taka with Serene and Seewan, home, msn, phone with Jean for a sad short 15 mins only, dinner, msn, homeworking. I'm gonna homework through the night! :D
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And praise God, I've got blessed with forty more dollars this week. :O Thank You.
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:D CAN YOU SEE THE ERROR PART OF THE PICTURE ONTOP?

It says, "You have reached the max number of friends"

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:p lalala! Haha why am I so happy.

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It's third day of school already. And seriously, these few days probably felt like pre-eoys days last year.

2nd Jan (first day of school) - BIO REMEDIAL AND CHOIR.

3rd Jan - CHOIR, stayed up til 230 am like that muggingggg.

4th Jan- MATHS TEST.

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Wah. I reached home at 4pm today and immediately went to bed. Haha woke up at eight. And late nights are making me fat :( I eat at 2 am like that and sleep at 3? And it's 2:27 am now and I just ate a chocolate bar. I rock. Before afternoonnapping, I ate chocolate toooooo. I just keep eating and sleeping :( I don't wanna gain weighttt. But I love eating. Haha.

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Tomorrow's CCA extravaganza. Excited? Well, not quite. Haha! Not excited? Not really too la. Just neutral. But first week of school and we must go back on a Saturdayyyyy.

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I'm the only one awake in my family now!

Seewan I want to talk! Haha. You didn't reply my messageeee.

I'll miss you Eleanor! :)

But the thing is, you're not gone from my life.

Neither are you replaced or removed from my heart.

I'll just not see you for a while.

But we'll still be good friends forever.

I love you!

And we'll definitely still keep in touch.

And you'll still forever be in my prayers!

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And this song says it all:

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Packing up the dreams God planted

In the fertile soil of you

I can't believe the hopes He's granted

Means a chapter of your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always

It won't even seem you've gone

'Cause our hearts in big and small ways

Will keep the love that keeps us strong

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And friends are friends forever

If the Lord's the Lord of them

And a friend will not say never

'Cause the welcome will not end

Though it's hard to let you go

In the Father's hands we know

That a lifetime's not too long

To live as friends

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And with the faith and love God's given

Springing from the hope we know

We will pray the joy you live in

Is the strength that now you show

We'll keep you close as always

It won't even seem you've gone

'Cause our hearts in big and small ways

Will keep the love that keeps us strong

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No a lifetime's not too long

To live as friends

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE OUT THERE!!!
HAPPY 2008! :D

I am mightily excited for the year ahead! I am superly excited for sec 4 life. I really am! :D I am excited excited excited for the new things that God's gonna do. And I'm just, excited. For everything that'll happen in this year to come! HOORA! Haha!
So everybody. Please turn to the neighbours on your left and right and tell them "Gwen is excited!" :p

NANANA. Haha! SCHOOL IS STARTING TOMORROW! And normally I'd dread it! But I'm excited. Haha I'm gonna be sec four. Yay awesome. But it means I'm gonna begin to realize I'm age-ing. 16 years olddddd, is not very young anymore. :) :D

Only thing, school = no more late nights. school = early mornings. *frowns. And in 2008, I am set to go home early after school unless there's a need to stay out late. I'm gonna do all of my homework. I am serious!

LALA. I'm doing holiday maths homework now. Seriously, I don't remember any amaths stuff. :/

2008 is gonna be a great year! Yay! Hee.

I wish everyone out there a most most awesome and fruitful 2008!
Lots of love to all :)