OH YES. Before I forget,
Finally, we had Sexy O. outing today.
Plenty of love to you girls.
All the bestest for O's.
And lets ajisen together after Os leh.
Cry our heart out over our spicy ramen.
Or maybe only I'll cry................. :/

Only this week,
I began... To have a revelation....
HOW QUICK OS ARE GONNA BE.
Ask my friends, and they'll tell you that I'm really excited for Os,
I wish it quickly come.
BUT. As I begin to really begin to understand how close Os are,
my heart gets a teeny weeny nervous.
:/ Haha. The exam which I've been studying for for the past 4 yrs is coming in less than 3 weeks!
The exam which will to a certain extent determine what kind of destiny I'm gonna have in life is coming in 3 svcs time.
Oh man :O
& whilst praying for Jane, she HAD to mention "God, even though it's less than 3 weeks...."
It's like suddenly, I felt, bam! It's just 3 weeks away... That very major exam :O
:O :O :O

Alrighty everyth's gonna be just allright.

I can never comprehend why Hansheng's blog has so many readers. Well! I'll just, hope.
Hope that one day. My blog will have as many readers.
Til then, keep reading my blog all you people! Haha.
(Pardon me if I don't update too often. O's y'see!)
Unless I can get a1 for my O's from blogging..............................
Which, indeed, good things don't come easy actually.

I wonder how I ought to start this post..
Whether I should start with "It's Saturday!" or that "it's 0915am now and I'm feeling really tired."
Well anyway! It's Saturday!!! And, I am really feeling tired so early in the morning.
But I ain't gonna go back to sleep, wasting my youth! Haha.

Last night was EDGE Night at Jurong West Church. It was really cool. It reminded me of Emerge and felt like a mini Emerge to me. Basicaly I think it's because it's like a youth movement. So, the youths from different zones came together and squeezed in the floor area, and filled up the terraces. (the chairs in the floor area were removed and we sat on the floor! :D) We rapped for praise, watched a video footage of Pst K in Taiwan(I was inspired!), and had a deep moment with God I'd say. Pst Z was really cute, he wore his shades up on stage. Really really cute! Yea and I could say a million words about EDGE Night but I'd just make it sound like, yet another church event. But hey! Go check it out yourself. 17th Oct same place same time. It's more than what my mere tongue can describe!

I haven't have much to blog about today,
but let me share with you guys a riddle! :D Heard it from Charis.
WHAT HAPPENS WHEN APPLE GOES TO CHANGI??
It becomes I-Chang!

It's 23:30pm now. I just got home from tuition about half an hour ago.
Well, schooled, riverwalked, cityhalled, chec-ed, then trained home (:
Yup just gonna blog a short while and head back to work.

Yesterday I vivo-ed with my Mom and had Carl's Jr. One entire burger with the cheesy beef fries mans :O
Two hours plus later, I went to Tan's Kitchen and had soba. The food was really good. Not too salty, or kiam-kiam(the dialects call it), but it's really good as it is cooked. The chef was awesome with her simple specialty. Credits to her! Much love.

Back to today. What happened? Hm! I met Eleanor, Huiru, Valerie and Aaron at City hall. It's amazing to see so many of us there. Haha. Thereafter we went our separate ways. I dinner-ed with Aaron and Valerie, whilst Eleanor and Huiru missed out by not dinnering with me :p

Oh and Miss Chng is overreacting, again. Just because of a few absentees, she wants to cancel all her supplementary lessons? Ugh. Nothing to say.

Well, to end off, it's 25 days to Os! Quick quick, Os quick comeeee. Then quick gooooo!

Oh and I hope Minghui gets well soon!
No, not soon, NOW.

I believe in the love of a God.
I believe, I believe.

Because of Him,
I choose and I choose and I want to deny myself.

I saw a pimple on my face just now...
And I laid my hand on it,
and said "I bind you in the name of Jesus"
And I thought it was quite hilarious,
but I was serious.
Haha ;D
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YOU KNOW WHAT,
last night before I slept I ate an apple pie and chocolates.
I was so sleepy after my supper I unknowingly drifted away to lala land.
Boo that is really bad ):
But people who know me won't find that surprising.
Cause this happens to me at least 4 times a week,
or even more.
:/
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OH and yes!
Yesterday I went for A math crashcourse at CHEC.
It ended around 2145.
I walked from Bras Basah there allllll the way to Esplanade,
thinking of taking a direct bus home from Esplanade.
But guess what?
The roads at Esplanade were officially blocked for the F1 race.
Fine, so I decided to take a train to Plaza Sing,
and bus back home.
Guess what now?
My bus isn't even service-ing anymore.
It must be cause of the F1 race again!!!!
So, exhausted from all the walking,
I decided to train back.
I had to change train at Outram park,
WHICH IS MORE WALKING.
BABABABABBABABA.
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Yes, no wonder I fell asleep after my apple pie ):
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Get well soon, Minghui!

P.S. Oh and for your info, there's something wrong with my post dates and timings.
Today is Wed 24th Sept. But my post is recorded to be posted on Tues. Ah well. I'll try to amend it asap. Haha.

FRUSTRATION
Yes, frustration.
I have been working really hard, do you all know?
I have been putting a lot of effort in my studies, have you all seen?
I have never been so serious with my studies, haven't you realized?
Well, apparently.
My prelims results do not show it all.
I felt sad,
when I saw my mates' hard work reflected by their results,
yet not mine.
No doubt, I do not take this lightly.
No doubt, it's quite dampening.
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But then again,
I still believe.
I still believe,
All things work out for good for those who love Him.
There's no reason we won't reap when we sow.
So, O's less-than-10-points, here gwen comes!
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DO YOU KNOW, the HK drama serial keeps calling out to me.
Okay I admit I've succumbed to temptation too many a times.
Even last night.
I can't help it. Okay maybe I can.
But it's still calling out for me, right now right here.
No I will not give in!
...til maybe later.
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Okay I'm back to biology.
Mugging rocks. Not.

The tears just could not stop streaming down my face,
as I bore the thought of what's going to happen.
Indeed I know, and I really know,
that these are only for the better.
I am glad, and I am glad.
That these are all going to happen.
Yet, there is one so important
it hurts to bid goodbye.
One so important,
Just so important...
ON A LIGHTER NOTE, I THINK I CAN BE A YOUNG GODMA!
I LOVE CHILDREN LOVELOVELOVE THEM.
I spotted the boy above at Plaza Sing's macs
&oh was he cute! :D
He was nibbling on his fries. I felt like having a kid right away! (Okay I AM REALLY KIDDING).
(:

You know, It's weird.
How people normally don't feel or care so much about things within their reach,
but yet, once it seems like that thing is being stolen,
they just feel like stretching out their hands and grabbing it all back.
Selfish, ain't we?
We just want all the good things for ourselves.
Ha ha ha.
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I'm having mixed emotions.
I don't exactly feel happy,
neither is there much for me to feel sad about.
Prelims. E math. I've got a b3.
I should be happy since I did not even expect a b3,
I was off-form during my paper.
Yet. Seeing the a1s my other classmates got,
I can't help but feel a little miserable.
Ha ha we just don't get contented, do we?
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Wellll............
There's a lot in life I gotta learn,
there's a lot in life I gotta face.
God I need the capacity, I need the strength.
How will the road ahead for me turn out to be?
Can I manage it?
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I know I can, I believe I can.
But sometimes, we always ask ourselves question like that.
We talk like that,
I don't know why.
Just because we are human beings.

MINGHUI.
Minghui, my leader in life.
My friend in fact.
Minghui, whose joy and laughter is enough
To make the dullest heart smile.
Minghui, who knows and sees.
Yet does not despise.
Minghui, who goes the extra mile
For people who do not always appreciate.
Minghui, who is brave
Though troubles come her way.
Minghui, who heeds
When God calls her name.
Minghui, Gwen's beloved heroine,
Her dearest sheperd.

I just did my quiet time (:
Woah was it good.
The presence of God was tangible..
Han Sheng asked Minghui yesterday how the presence of God is like.
To me, the presence of God is more than what can be felt physically.
Yes, it can be felt physically many a times,
for example goosebumps, warmth etc.
But I feel a lot of times, the presence of God is felt within your heart.
When that feeling of warmth and love comes and overwhelms your heart,
that is the presence of God, I feel (:
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So, just now, I felt this dear feeling of love overwhelm my heart,
it feels reeeaallllyyyy good.
But! The doorbell rang!
Turn to your neighbours and say "the doorbell so rang at the right time"
Argh irritating I know..
But nevermind. Anyway qt was good luh. (:
Yay thank You God,
thank You for humbling Yourself to fellowship with me :}
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I am eating now.
No I am not hungry. But I just felt like eating
I'm gaining weighttttttt ):
But mm yummy! :D
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There's this fear in my heart,
that the expectations of society; stereotype of people,
will limit where I can go in future,
will stop me from having the best for me in life.
But then again,
My God won't let that happen.
All things work out for good for those who love Him
(:
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I was supposed to have a lot to blog about.
But suddenly I lost all inspiration.
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I was talking and talking to my mom yesterday about boy-girl thingys.
I was telling her the kinda guys I like, and she was telling me the guys who were once after her, then she said..
"One thing's for sure.. Don't lose your virginity"
Yes mom I know...
I love my mom!

Today was out studying with Han sheng and Huiwen!
It was pretty fine; pretty good, pretty enjoyable.
And I'm pretty hungry.
And pretty sleepy yawnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
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FINALLY.
TMR. IS. MY LAST. LAST. LAST. PAPER.
GOODBYE PRELIMS!
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And hello prelims' results.
I hope you be fifteen at most.
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You are what keeps me going;
Your love keeps me close to You,
despite all my weaknesses,
all my imperfections..
Your grace is sufficient.
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"Is your mistake so big God can't fix it?"
No. No it isn't. It never will be.

I want a boyfriend now!
I want someone to make me honey water,
cause my throat isn't too good.
I want him to care for my dear ol' throat.
And when it recovers,
I'll dump him away.
Alright I was kidding.
O you guys, don't run away.
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HAHAHA.
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Hello Mr Midnight, I'm prepared to burn you.

LONG AGO'S:I was lunching at KFC with Hansheng before we headed to ECP together. Check out my awesome cheese fries which I thought was really cool, but Hansheng was disgusted by it ><My Lunch partner, Mr Chien Han Sheng. Act shy!
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After cycling/blading at ECP(the photos aren't with me), we went for dinner. AND THEN, SMELLY TOFU! Haha. Check out their faces. And Serene looks like she's enjoying it luh. Well, can't blame her. She feels at home while eating it, cause the smelly tofu smells like her home.. The garbage bin! Haha I'm just kidding, really. Love ya Serene (:Yummmmmmm yummmy!Eleanor's first attempt at Smelly Tofu! :D
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Now, a photo I took last Monday whilst studying with Valerie, Liangwei and Dawn at Holland V's BK:COOL EH! :/ Haha. Scary.
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Andddd. While studying at Clarke Quay's BK, I noticed a bunch of really cool people. They are Awlangs. And they are really really cool :} Took a shot of them. Checkitoutoutout. They look really cool. It's like bring overseas to Singapore. Multi-ethnic society ha..
Last Friday, I had Sakae Buffet with Weiwen and Seewan for the first time in my life.
We ate until we were reeealllllyyyy full. At least I was.

It was great! (:

So yeah. Past week I was occupied by prelims. Didn't think I performed well at all. I was pretty sad la. But thank God He encouraged me, and helped me move on!

Tomorrow I'm having my biology paper 1. And today, unlike usually, I chose to come home early. Haha feels funny. But ya it wasn't a very good choice, cause I ended up 1) sleeping 2) blogging 3) msning. HORRIFYING.

I'm gonna continue mugging after this post.

Tears welled up my eyes,

As I gritted my teeth to fight.

"I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry"

was all I could ever think about.

Why was I so foolish?

Can I ever straighten things out?

He wasn't planning to let me go,

trying to make me question myself.

Knowing that my God would save,

I told myself...

It's all gonna be okay...

I think. Sometimes, as humans, our expectations are unreasonable. We expect out of others what we ourselves cannot give. It's time, to try to understand. To try to, use our heart and think.

I love Emily.

1 Corinthians 10:13- "No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it" A right word for the right season, thank You Jesus.

What's worse than being in a cold country all alone, shiveringggg and with plenty of goosebumps?
Being in the same room with a sister who keeps singing super weirdly. High-pitched. Gives you just as much goosebumps. Oh yes, and not to mention, dancing in her seat.

A Small Chat.
Gwen: God, what do You want for my life/my future?
God: What do you want for your future?
Gwen: Truthfully God, I want to be a social worker, get a good job... (I think far I know)
Gwen: But... *thinking what God may want for my future* hm. If I know God, I'll know His thoughts. I'll know my future. Cause God's thoughts of me are good, and not of evil. He has a future for me!
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Well. It has been one tiring week!
Blog more soon (:

1, My dog is getting annoying barking nonstop ):
I'm trying to get some studying done hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

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2, I'm quite burdened by the amount of things I gotta do.
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3, I'm quite stressed by the sight at how much only I've done.
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4, my God's grace is sufficient for me.
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5, I don't wish to give up.
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6, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
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7, I had a great time at ECP yesterday, followed by paya lebar hawker centre, then smelly tofu. Ha! (; yesterdayrocked.
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8, Now I'm yearning for my alone and solitude time. With just, Him watching over and by my side. All day long.